Sometimes I think we shouldn't write posts when we're emotional.
Other times, writing it out might be a helpful way to deal with something.
Something like guns being found outside your kid's school.
As a mom, after finding out bits and pieces about guns being found at crosswalks and in the street, I did my best to remain calm, putting my trust in the fact that if there were a problem I'd hear from the school...and, of course, doubted that trust more and more every minute I didn't hear anything. I reminded myself that I'd certainly learn details later, and everything would be clear.
The details have come out, and I'm angry.
A man had forgotten that he left his guns on top of his car. When he drove away (and past the school), the guns fell off and onto the street.
I won't even tell you the potential scenarios that raced through my head this afternoon and evening (I can't -- it's too much). What I didn't imagine was that a guy left his guns on top of his car. You know, like you do with a cup of Coke, or the box of leftovers from the restaurant.
So, why so angry?
Don't I know that people have a right in this country to own a gun? Don't I realize that the gun owner did the right thing by contacting the police to let them know that his guns were missing? Can't I understand that we all make mistakes? Don't I realize that the guns weren't loaded, and so the situation could have been a lot worse, but it wasn't? And Talk To Your Kids About Gun Safety?
But here's the thing: if you go through all the work to legally own a gun, and then you're careless with that gun, you should be punished for being careless with that gun. BECAUSE IT'S A GUN.
That this situation turned out to be a how-to on What To Do If You Find A Gun Near School doesn't make it okay that it happened. Why? Because of the What-Ifs. What if the mom who saw the gun assumed it was a toy and drove on by? What if the 8-year-old boy who found and picked up the OTHER gun decided to just hold on to it, maybe to show to his friends or take home? What if someone else (a teenager? Another adult?) who does not hold a gun permit found either of the guns and kept it? And, of course, we can't forget: What if the gun owner had not, in fact, emptied the gun(s) of their ammunition?
What-Ifs? Yes. Because guess what. Accidents happen, and you know it and I know it, and I'm too tired to look up examples and link to them, but they happen, and we both know it.
When my daughter got home, she called me. "Hi, Mom! Guess what happened at school today!"
"How did you know?"
"I saw some things about it on my phone."
"Well, we had to go into lockdown, the whole school did."
"What does 'lockdown' mean?"
"We all just went into our teacher's small office -- our whole class was in there. We had to be very still and totally quiet while the police searched the school for another gun or a shooter."
And THAT is when I lost it. The idea of my daughter, crowded into her teacher's office along with the rest of her classmates, being 'very still and totally quiet' while POLICE searched her SCHOOL for ANOTHER GUN or a SHOOTER.
This is not about being political. This is about a mom who wants her kids to NOT be around guns. Simple.